spring has sprung!! birds, nest building and shoes....



 spring has sprung.  birds abound with their cheerful chirping.  we have an over abundance of birds, and i LOVE it!  one bird in partucular seemed to love being on our front porch and would fly out when ever we came out the door......i love to sit and watch them play in my trees, to hear them singing through out the day, and i love when they finish up their day in the evening--it is like they sing a song to God for thanks for the day, and then they go silent and go to bed....

along with that has come spring cleaning....WONDERFUL thing!!! we have had this wreath hanging outside in the front door alcove since before christmas...it is after all a LOVELY winter wreath. winter is gone now however, and so i thought that now that spring has sprung in the world, as well as in my heart, it was time to swap it out!



for some reason, i looked closely at the nest, and figured out that the friendly bird that loved the front porch has actually built it's nest in my wreath!  see how it is all filled in at the top?  and you can't see the wall thru it?  you can all the rest of the way 'round the wreath......here it is from the side view.....

and HERE it is from the overview!!!



EGGS!!!!!  NEW LIFE!!!

 i  take alot of time to notice the world and it's beauty around me and try to hear what God it trying to tell me.....i hope i am listening well......i know that He uses so much to teach me, and i believe that he was using this bird and nest.   even if i am not where i would want to be, i can still build my nest where i am, even if it seems like i am clinging to the side of a house, that there is still an opportunity for new life...i could have chosen to look at this all negatively and another obstacle in my life and as being stuck with that wreath on my wall for another long time and as a reminder that winter is STILL here dag nab it.....or.....i could choose to learn and grow from it.
 
this past winter has been particularly hard for me.  i do not believe that i have ever been in a more difficult period of my life--i believe that i am handling it all pretty well and that i am the healthiest  i have ever been, but boy howdy, it has been a very long winter--inside as well as out.
 
i have been sortof existing in my cottage.  i was sortof at a rest and recharge time--in a winter in my soul--then, spring finally arrived.  while i did not have my own main home anymore to live in,  i DO have my cottage--like the bird had the top of my wreath....it was time for nest building! 
 
i have really enjoyed making my cottage my home recently.  it reflects ME!!!  it is a peaceful refuge for me, a sanctuary, a place i find rest--a place where i LOVE myself, and am confident in my choices that i am making in my life.
 
it is not easy choosing to become seperated afte 30 years of marriage.  it is not easy starting over, nor is it easy building a new nest for myself.....but it IS where i am, and i am thankful that spring has finally sprung.
 
i am really happy that the Lord is my focus and my lead....i am happy that he has healed my from my past and that he is giving me a voice to live in that health now....regardless of what others may think.....
 
 i am just trying to live a healthy life emotionally, physically, and most importantly spiritually.  if others do not understand the choices i make, i am not responsible for that, they are not me, and they have not walked in my shoes....my shoes are molded to my feet, just like theirs are molded to theirs.....my goal is to walk the path that the Lord lays down for me--nothing more, nothing less.

  

  

actually, these shoes are molded to silas' feet--coz we all know that i HATE shoes LOL