changes and rebuilding....

yes, lots of changes,  in my relationships, my home, and my quilting.  rebuilding takes such an awful lot of work and time, but i am still plugging away. and it IS therapeutic!  i am soooo much happier in this new house, and in my new life. 

 i just came in for a break from my work in my.....i am going to have to come up with a name instead of garage, and i don't really like studio....but, from THAT area LOL  sure is shaping up and i know i am going to really enjoy my space once i get it set up.  i think it is just that it came nearly last.  my bedroom is last  ;o(  but, you cant do everything at once.  knowing that is different than accepting that though LOL  i just keep reminding myself that though, and keep taking a look around and seeing the emptied boxes flattened and stacked up and the cuteness that is surrounding me, and i am satisfied.

i have been doing a lot of piecing lately.  THAT has been really satisfying.  the piecing sewing area has shaped up quickly and nicely and i like being in there--ALOT!  i think though, that it is just a filler for not getting to what i really need to be doing......starting that business!  

WANT to quilt as a business.  i am just afraid to put myself out there.  like i will be exposed for being a fraud, thinking i can do something that i clearly can't.  totally stupid thinking, because i know i CAN, and DO do nice work.  i believe i would be able to do it, and be reliable but i just can't seem to take that deep plunge into the water for fear of drowning.  paralysis seems to be better for me than drowning it would seem.  that is really gonna have to change!  i need some income!  and, i really do not want to go out there and get a "real" job.  so, i am going to have to have someone just drag me into it......

break is over, got some more i want to get done out there, and then hopefully am going to even load a quilt today and do some practice work on a cheater quilt.  it will be nice to see how my space works  instead of just how it looks.   i think i am going to really enjoy  it actually.  i think it is going to become my sanctuary.  my retreat  ;o)  i am tingling with anticipation now, where before i just had dread.....hip hip hooray!!!