i am having a wonderfully relaxing saturday. still in my robe at 1 p.m. even. i knit for alot of the morning, played on the computer a bit, knit some more. i finished a hat that i have been working on for a while, all i have to do now is fold over the bottom to make the picot edge and stitch it down and pull the top stitches tight and weave ends. that does't sound very finished does it? and, for me, that could remain un-done for a very long time--except for the fact that i really want this hat finished.....i am really working towards getting some of my old projects finished up and out of here--for a few reasons.
one, i don't want to store them anymore. i have so many UFO's that are just being stored. i need less clutter.
two, many of them were gifts. now, how much of a gift is it if it never gets completed for the person to get??!! just a preview and a promise is not much of a gift afterall is it?
three, it is a waste of time and resources to have invested into the project. even though most of my joy comes from the journey rather than the finished project, a finished project really would be a better use of the resources in the long run.
and, i think, finally--fourth--i am really working on my (not good for me) desire for perfection and accepting flaws that i make, and accepting my work as it is and of being proud of it. now, i know that my family is probably laughing at that, because they think that i pat myself on the back all the time, but, in reality i don't. i just need so much validation to confirm to me that what i have done is good, and i translate that into that therefore i am of value--yes, warped i know, and not a good thing....and, i am working on that, but it is a hard one for me to get a good handle on so far.....making great strides, but still not where i want to be. i am learning that that is not where my self worth lies, and, that i am not being judged as much as i think that i am, and even if i were, who says that "they" are right anyway??
probably not exactly what jenna wanted to read about...but, it was what i wanted to write about....i bet she wanted to read about the wonderful party that we had for silas' first birthday....it was GRAND to open our house up to family and friends to celebrate the wonderfulness of silas. he is just the most wonderful little 1 yr. old boy that i know--i can say that because tristan is 2 and phoenix is only 6 months still.....so, for now, silas gets to enjoy the status of favorite all on his own. being a grandma is just grand!
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you're right- I did want to read about the party :) But, at least you blogged!
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